Numb, no not the hit song from Linkin Park but its very similar to that song. Anyways me and my dad were driving my little sister to tuition at around 6.4o pm, the tuition centre was at Sunway (Kancil) and it wasn’t that far from my house. Given the right conditions you could go there and back to my place in about 15 minutes. But given the WRONG conditions like just now, it took us about an hour after finishing up some minor errands.

Satu bende ar aq x ske mase drive is bile jam. Memang xde sape ar yg suke jam, melainkan jam yg bole disapu atas roti (lame ass joke, i know -_- ‘). Antara sbbnye bile jam je sume org stress, masing2  nak cepat ke destinasi dorang, and kite tau je la Malaysians ni bile naik kete je we become totally different, lagi2 bile jalan raya sesak dan kerete berjalan macam siput. Masa tu la the popular saying by Dato Siti Nurhaliza, ” Budi Bahasa Budaya Kita” can be thrown into the garbage can. Mane tak nye tgk je la org yg bawak kete tuh, dgn muka tension sume x nak kasi peluang kat pemandu lain kat jalan.

Asal boleh nak bawak kete dekat2 sbb x nak kasi org lain potong line, cam sh*t je. Lagi satu aq paling x ske is bile orang nak masuk lane kite bile tgh sesak, kalo nak masuk bole je tapi kena ar mintak dlu. Huh mintak? camne nak mintak jang, nak kena bukak tingkap and tanye ke? Kalo nak bole je buat camtu tapi pelik lak nanti kan, anyway x nah aq tgk org buat camtu lagi seumur hidup aq. No, the least you can do in situations like that is just to put up your hand to the fellow drive as a sign of  gratitude ( so to speak ) for letting you get into the line. Lagi manis kalo boleh disertakan dengan satu senyuman yang ala2 manis gitu. Tapi nowadays thats not the trend! Skrang sume main cucuk je pastu buat muka xleh blah. Lagi stlye bile die cucuk lane tu die x pandang langsung org yang kat lane tuh, pergh panas darah beb bile orang buat camtu. No decency to even look at the other person, asal muka driver to x nsem/lawa ke? (Ish takkan ar muka aq buruk nar sampai camtu skali) Owh mungkin die terlalu malu sbb potong line, sbb tu die segan nak tayang muka ( logik x? huhu)

Ayah : Society nowadays are so NUMB abang.

Me: NUMB?

Ayah : Yeah see la that lady, park her car behind us blocking us from going out and while we wait for her as she came out, didn’t even look at us ke, angkat tangan or any sign of being sorry.

Me : Standard la people now too busy to care anymore.

Sheesh, I tell you Subang is not like it was last time. Now the streets are so busy with cars, development rapidly taking place everywhere evident by the many new apartments and shopping malls that are sprouting up like hot cakes. I guess that s a sign of economic growth kan? tapi camne lak economic developement? ha jawab ar budak2 yg dapat 7 for econs huhuhu. Dah x bez cam dlu duk subang, people change dah skrang. Kalo change to better is good, tapi kalo change to worse is not as favourable nonetheless change constantly occurs in our life and so we need to deal with it.

PS: Nak drive leisurely in Subang? Drive ar tgh2 malam, confem bez, xde kete byk, the road is clear and you can speed as fast as you like.

WHEN WILL THEY MAKE CARS THAT CAN FLY??

Gonna stop writing for a while

Basically because the idea’s aren’t flowing as well as it used to

Not that it matters anyways right?

Ciao for now

Help me interpret this dream;

I dreamt about someone from the past, of whom I had a close bond with.

That person looked healthy, cheerful and full of life which made me smile

That person however, is one that I would like to forget

because i’d like to move forward and not trying to cling on to the past.

How eh? What do you think it means? I dunno either…

They say that dreams convey the things in your mind, for example when your exam results are coming you start to worry about it and sometimes you begin to dream about it during your sleep. You’ll get that nightmare where you FAILED your exam and it so vivid that you wake up with cold sweat. However dreams are not to be interpret easily as it has it own complex web of reasoning to which only the dreamer would totally grasp. Currently Im grasping nothing but thin air..

What’s worse ( well not worse lah, just to make it sound better ), is that on the next day due to the advancement in technology, that person appeared on facebook. Coincidence? Cruel fate? You be the judge, but it makes the process of trying to forget seems so much harder. Why do i want to forget? was what we had before embarassing? No, it’s not embarassing to have that feeling of affection towards someone and for that someone to portray her similar feelings back to you. Just that time has passed and people have changed, and what little once was beautiful has withered to nothingness.

If there was anyone to blame it would be the person who’s heart was indecisive not the person who stole her affection. My regret is not having to say what should have been said a long time ago. However there’s no use crying over spilt milk, no use trying to forget someone as that important in your life. Instead of forgetting, we should learn to go with the flow and accept change. There’s always a reason why things happen the way it did and only Almighty God knows why. With that, the best way is to cherish the fond memories of youth and to learn from the mistakes that had occured because life goes on…

” I wish you well and happiness in the days to come always”

PS: This entry is purely “fictional” with nothing to do with the living nor the deceased. Simply done to fulfill my desire to write. Please do not misunderstand

Orang kate air dicincang xkan putus

tapi kalo air tu dibiarkan sejuk dalam peti ais terlebih dahulu camne eh?

still x putus ke?

if their hearts have become as cold and hard

as the giant glasiers in Antartica

will we still be able to mend things

and return back to the way it was before?

I sincerely hope so,

because i miss the closeness that we shared

way back before….

Its been quite some time already but my dear uncle “Cik Nuar” has finally tied the knot after 30 years of waiting

The man of the hour!!

Big day for him as the majlis pernikahan was done very smoothly, in one shot i might add haha

the happy couple with mummy

Although not many from our side of the family were able to attend the wedding, I’d say everything went well

simple hantarans

My dad was so proud of Cik Nuar and so was Mummy who cried during the wedding,

proud ayah

The majlis was simple, xde bersanding pape pon just after the nikah kitorang makan sesame as a family

So beautiful to see how they both love each other unconditionally,

even though my uncle has his own shortcomings and problems before, you can see that despite that she loves him dearly,

I hope that live a happy life together forever.

WAITING.FOR.MY.UNCONDITIONAL.LOVE.&.LETTER.

Jang : Wan, sejuk dow. Tolong slowkan air-con

Wan : Sejuk jang, come on ar x remaja ar camni!

Owh x remaja eh……

Today, Wan and I decided to go back to college to visit our teachers. It was something that I was looking forward to after getting the IB results. I couldn’t wait to see Pn Khuzaimi, Pn Adeelah, Pn Marzini, Pn Azizah, Pn Mawarzah, Uz Sulor, Ms Aqyn, Ms Fazlinda & Pn Siti Fatimoh. We arrived at Banting around 12 and chit chat with the teachers, saying thank you and showing our gratitude towards all of their support thoughout the years. It was all good untill we sent Ammar & Geng to Serdang.

Wan: Jang, kite semayang maghrib kat UPM dlu ar pastu kite balik

Jang: Orait je, aq ikot ko sbb ko yang bawak kete

So, we went to UPM which for me was the first time venturing into the large and hugely spacious university. We did our prayers and then decided to gave dinner with Safwan’s mates in UPM. Since I was in the neighbourhood, I decided to call Syafiq Janggut out to join us for dinner as i was quite shy with Safwan’s friend. It was suppose to be very simple, order food, eat dinner, have a lil chat and then vamoos! (balik rumah). But things didn’t really go according to plan, firstly ordering the food took a long time, secondly there wasn’t a “LIL CHAT” but a very lengthy chat. Shafiq came to the cafe to hang out with me after finding out that he had mistaken his classes for that night. So we sat down, talked,joked, laughed and all that jazz since Shafiq took all the trouble to come and see me. It was nice and always is a pleasure to hang with Syafiq because he’s a fun guy, and since Safwan was also busy talking to his friend time actually flew by without us noticing much. It was getting late so we decided to go back home when all of a sudden…..

Wan : Shit!

Jang: Apehal?

Wan : Aq terlupe tutup lampu dow ( as seen from the red shining backlight from the green Kancil ). Alamak, batteri weak dow kete x leh start

Jang: Ah sudah!

camni ar lebeyh kurang haha

Jeng,jeng,jeng….. now the fun part started. We started got panicky especially Safwan, and honestly I wouldn’t blame him haha. It seemed like all shit was set loose, alarm kete pecah, both our handphone’s batteries we’re almost empty hence giving us no chance to call for help, and also the faint idea of pushing the car up the uphill slope in which the car was parked. I didn’t no what to do, but it seemed funny and all i did was smile and giggled while trying at the same time to calm safwan down.

Jang : Wan, time2 camni yg penting kite kena tenang…..

However, in a blink of an eye suddenly as Safwan tried to start the car, i’ts engine sprung back to life. Ah, such music to our ears.Alhamdullillah finally we can go back, and the journey back was frought with nervousness as we were worried that the car may stop suddenly in the middle of the road. Thankfully, it didn’t and it taught us (especially Safwan hehe) and important lesson; LAIN KALI TUTUP LAMPU BILE KUAR KETE!!!

But to me i actually enjoyed the experience with Safwan because u probably don’t get to do this kinda stuff on ur everyday basis. Eventhough i arrived back home late, with RM 17 gone from my pocket, I came home with a smile…:)

Wan: Sorry ar jang, aq rase bersalah gile ngan ko dow. Ni sume salah aq bro sorry ar.

Jang: Lek ar Wan, x mnyusahkan sape pon. Bukannye aq keje pon esok, xde hal ar.

Wan: Pape pon sorry ar. Tapi at least ade gak memory aq lepak ngan ko in these kind of situation kan haha. Maybe this may even be the last time we hang out with each other before flying off.

Jang: Haha no prob la, its a memorable experience bro. Camni ar baru REMAJA Wan haha!

YOUNG.AT.HEART.FOREVER

tolak bro!

After one whole day of intense worrying, finally the time had arrived. It’s 9.15pm, time to see whether two years of hard work has finally paid off. Nervously, i entered the personal code and the pin number into the website and pressed “ENTER“

Login, click

And there it was,

no doubt that it was mine; MD HASSAN, AMIR AIMAN

scroll down, slowly,slowly and then…

at long last, a sigh of relief

Alhamdullillah

It was the most intense moment i have ever felt so far. Scrolling down that page to see my final results and praise be to Allah, i passed with flying colours. Spontaneous reaction after getting my results, i screamed while jumping of joy in my room alone ( the neighbours must’ve  been asking why is this boy screaming like a mad man?? haha ). Then i quickly rushed down to hug my Dad and Mom who were both pleased and proud of me for what i have achieved. No doubt without my parents i would be nothing, they’re the reason why i worked as hard as i did for the past two years and un deniably there’s no sweeter taste than the taste of success after all the hardships and tribulations endured for  the past two years. I still remember what Ayah said to me before i checked my results

“Don’t worry abang, I believe in you.”

Thanks Ayah for believing in me

I’d also like to thank all my teacher’s in KMB for all their support and guidance throughout the IB experience in Banting. Not to mention also to my fellow classmates and friends in KMB, “Congrats guys!!”. Not forgetting also to my IRPmates, well done guys our hard work paid off. My only regret was that i was not a good enough leader to help my team to achieve excellence in our exams. Truthfully I am sorry for that, but Allah knows best, have faith in Him.

PS : to my juniors in KMB, good luck for ur IB exams nanti hehehe

I SURVIVED IB!

Setelah lama x bergiat dalam sukan bola sepak, akhirnya dapat juga saya bersama beberapa rakan2 subang jaya bermain futsal di Sports Planet berhampiran dengan Summit USJ. Sememangnya setelah lama tidak turun padang, badan saya ni kian menjadi kurang “fit”, maka kelihatanlah sindrom2 pancit seperti tercunggap2 semase mengejar bola serta accuracy sepakan yang hampir kepada 0%

Jang : Pergh pancit la syal, aq nak sub ar dlu

Ding : Ai Mir, baru main dah pancit ke. Dah bape lame ko x main bola ni??

Jang : (Memikirkan alasan….) Dow boot aq hilang kot, sbb tu ar lame x trun padang 15

Ding : Ceh alasan x leh trima. Kate je la ko tido petang2 hahaha

Biar apa pon, bermain futsal bersama Justin, Ding, Syafiq Janggut, Safwan dan Anep adalah sentiasa seronok walaupun penat gile. Lepas ni budak2 ni dah start sem baru aq nak main futsal ngan sape lak? mesti bosan lepas minggu depan ni, apa-apa pon baik berseronok bersama mereka sepenuh-penuhnya sebelum minggu depan. Lepas bermain futsal, seperti biasalah kami berehat, mengeringkan peluh sambil bertukar2 cerita tentang diri masing-masing;

Syafiq: Panjang ko sblom fly nanti ko open table ar eh hehe

Jang : InsyaAllah kalo fly aq open nyer hehe

Syafiq : Ko tau mase tu kat kampus aq ngan member aq tgh borak2. Member aq kate, ” Piq, kan best kalo ade duit lebih skrang ni bole gi beli barang2 cam handphone ke, baju ke. RM100 pon jadi ar kan”.

Jang: Ko ni asyik pkir nak shopping je dow haha

Syafiq: Lek dlu dgr cite aq dlu, pastu dan2 ade pak cik tua ni lalu depan kitorang. Dia tengah check wallet die, cari sumthing ar pastu tiba2 jatuh duit dari wallet die. Pak cik tu x sedar, tapi member aq sorang ni perasan. Punyalah mata duitan member aq sorang ni die kate nampak cam RM 100. Pastu pak cik blah camtu je..

Justin : Dah tu ko amik ke?

Syafiq : Aq buat bodo ar tapi member aq tu die kate, ” weh ko lalu dekat ngan duit tu, pastu buat2 cam nak ikat kasut. Kang aq datang sebelah ko amik duit tu ok?”. Aq pon layan je la kepala member aq ni, gerak dekat tempat pak cik tu jatuh duit pastu buat2 ikat kasut. Member aq pon datang ar dekat aq.

Ding : Haha so kire korang amik ar duit tu

Syafiq: Member aq amik ar. Pastu ko tau die kate ape kat aq, “ Syafiq, sius aq nampak cam rm100 dow tapi bile aq datang amik duit tu rupa-rupanya Rm1.00 je”. Hahahaha aq pon pkir, tu ar Allah nak tunjuk jangan buat bende2 jahat camtu.

THINK.ABOUT.THINK.THINK.ABOUT.IT.

ayah

HAPPY FATHERS DAY!!

sorry lambat satu ari,

but thanks for being so strong,

patient,

loving & caring,

for always being there,

and for everything.

Its 5.41am,

I’m alone in the room,

staring straight into my laptop screen,

and somehow rather,

I can’t stop the tears from flowing down my cheeks.

How often do we think about death? Me personally the answer seems to be; very rarely. I live my life in a somewhat carefree manner because as long as i’ve lived i have always been healthy. A few times i was admitted to the hospital for minor problems and diseases but all in all im a healthy person. And being so tends to lead me to feel nonchalant about life because your lucky to always feel comfortable and in the safe zone.

But as they say “life is like a ball, sometimes we’re up the next time we’re down.” Today you might be healthy and as fit as a fiddle but you never know what’s going to happen tommorrow, maybe you’ll be diagnosed with a fatal disease and have a limited period of time left in this world, you never know. We don’t know how lucky we are to be in the condition we are today, healthy, able to walk, play, hang out with your buddies and enjoy that what life has to offer. There are people out there who aren’t as fortunate as we are, those for example who are diagnosed with breast cancer and are only 24 years of age. How would you react if the doctor told you straight to your face that you have only 1 month to live?

We on the other hand are living the life, healthy, normal as you call it , able to live it up everyday without a care in the world. We’re given something so precious by God, and yet everyday we continue to do sins. How does that tally with what God has given to us? Without Him we are nothing, and I often seem to forget that. So i would like to remind myself and others that everyday, no every second if possible we should be thankful to God for all of his blessings to us. Always muhasabah everyday to see what we’ve done wrong and to try to “upgrade” ourselves to become a better person.

PS: try watching this video hopefully it helps remind us how fortunate we are

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Efsz9qlmyYc&NR=1

.SYUKUR.