As I was walking down the street, heading towards the football field in ss15 i caught a glimpse of my old friend Justin sitting down beside the sidewalk getting ready to put on his cleats. He saw me and without hesitation he called out,

“Oi Jang mane ko menghilang hahaha”, I just smiled back waving responsively.

Its true i haven’t been spending much of my free time with my old footballing buddies and i do miss them very much, but as you can imagine as we grow up we have move responsibilities that requires more attention and priority. However with that being said, that’s no excuse for not spending quality time with my mates. Friends are important and you gotta cherish them while you still can.

Anyways, i had a lil chat with Justin before we went down to the field. A very charming and delightful fellow i always enjoy talking to Justin bout anything basically.

“Ko bile nak fly eh panjang?”, he asked

“Lame lagi ar Jus, dalam taun depan kot tu pon kalo lepas exam hehe”

“Ko tau Panjang aq slalu sangka yang ko akan jadi doctor cam si Hafiz tu, tapi x ni ko jadi acturial science”, he said to me

“La kite mesti ar nak jadi lain dari yang lain Jus sbb tu la aq amik course nih”, was my spontanious answer to his previous statement.

Then it suddenly hit me, would i have been better off taking medicine instead of the course im currently taking? Was it the right choice to take up actuarial science? People close to me have always thought that i was a medicine type of student. Even after graduating from secondary school my teachers would be shocked when i told them that i was taking actuarial science. I remember my teacher saying,

“Huh actuary? ape tu Amir, asal kamu x amik medic?”

Well i didn’t take up medicine cause i didn’t like the sight of blood and engineering was not my cup of tea so i adopted actuary. But i can’t help but have a shroud of doubt over my choice, i mean look at all my other mates they’ve all either already went overseas or are going to fly in a couple of months time. You can’t help but be a bit envious of them, i mean can u blame me, i struggled hard to get good grades, sacrificed a lot to achieve my dream but so far it doesn’t look to be paying off. Stuck here in this dreadful IB programme, cramped with loads of work and my stress levels are blowing over the top!

Still the question remains, was it the best choice for me??

I believe that in this life everything that happens has its reasons and Allah knows whats best for His creation and He does not burden man (2:286). So although it may not be clear so far whether or not i made the right decision, im confident that Allah will always be with me throughout all my struggles in life and as what my friends always say “go with the flow” so that’s what im gonna do go with the flow cause there’s always a bright side in life and i guess for me that light isn’t shining brightly just yet but i’ll wait.